People talk about faith a lot. I’m one of those people. People talk about having strong faith or a lot of faith or that their faith is somehow weakening in the face of struggle or just because we are struggling. But what does all of that mean?
Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.
Faith or belief that God has it all under control no matter what things look like and feel like here on earth. That’s faith to me. That we can trust in him and hope. Faith to me is knowing that even though I shed tears or fear the worst, that I can trust God knows exactly what is happening, what comes next, that He is in control, and I will be ok on the other side of it all. I’m so thankful for the knowledge that no matter what happens on this baby journey, God is in control and I will be ok.
I don’t think just because I may cry when something doesn’t go the way I hoped or because I am sad that what I wanted in the time I wanted it means I don’t have faith. I think in those moments that I struggle to understand, I learn to turn to Him faster and put my trust in him completely. I don’t think it means I’m losing faith or that my faith is weakening. I think it means my faith is getting stronger. That God knows I’m not capable of handling all things this world throws at me because I wasn’t made to. I was made to rely on God. So if I’m hurting, that’s just a normal worldly feeling. What is important is that I turn to God and His word and rely on Him even when I can’t see it all playing out ahead of me. #planner #thestruggleisreal When I don’t know or understand His timing… When I can’t understand why things happened the way it happened… I just have to sit, listen, and pray.
Matthew 17: 20 He said to them, “Because of your little faith. For truly, I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.”
Our faith need be but the size of a grain of mustard seed. WHAAAAT?? That’s it?! Really? THANK GOODNESS! That’s truly all we need. Have a little faith, turn to God, and let Him do the rest. He has the power. We don’t need it. We just forget that sometimes. Again… the world. Not. Our. Home.
I am in waiting once again to find out if this second round of IUI is the round God says yes to this momma’s heart for another baby. I don’t know what His plan is. If this round He says no, I’m certain I will be sad and allow myself the time to cry and mourn another month gone. But that does not mean I don’t have faith or I don’t trust in God. I do. And I will turn to Him and give him my sadness and pray for Him to help me take the next steps he desires me to take.
He has taught me it’s ok to be human. It’s ok to be broken. It’s ok to feel powerless. It’s ok to be sad. Because I don’t have to be perfect. My perfection comes from believing in Him and being saved by his blood and His grace. I am so thankful I don’t have to be all things perfectly to be loved by Him. You don’t either.
So ladies, let’s let go of the idea of perfection and let’s grab on to the knowledge that God is all things for us. All we have to do it turn to Him and have a tiny bit of faith.
Blessings friends…. and #pray